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Context: Throughout this transcript, Bhante Vimalaramsi is the speaker unless otherwise indicated.
so have you already been granted okay so
you have an idea of what we're gonna be
doing here I would like you to cut down
you're talking and only talk about
Dominic
okay the retreat is going to be a
loving-kindness retreat and what that
really entails is learning how to smile
all the time there's a real interesting
thing that happens when the corners of
your mouth go down so does your mental
state when the corners of your mouth go
up so does your mental state I don't
care whether you don't feel like smiling
I want you to smile anyway okay it's
important because it helps bring your
mind up and it will help joy arise and
when you have joy in your mind your mind
is very clear your mind is very alert
and it's very easy to see when your mind
starts to get pulled down so smiling is
a real important aspect of this practice
when you practice loving-kindness
meditation you first start by sending
loving and kind thoughts to yourself
remember a time when you were happy when
you held a little baby in your arms with
me held
little animal in your hands and that
feeling that you get from that is a nice
warm glowing feeling in the center of
your chest as soon as that feeling
arises then you make a wish for your own
happiness may I be happy may my mind be
peaceful and calm my mind be filled with
joy any kind of wish that you make for
yourself you need to feel that which you
know what it feels like to be happy you
know what it feels like to be peaceful
and calm bring that feeling up and put
that feeling right in the center of your
chest and in that glowing feeling and
stay with that as long as you can
now your mind is going to wander and
it's okay we're not trying to shut our
mind down and stop it from thinking but
as soon as you notice that you're not on
the feeling of loving kindness and
feeling that wish then recognize that
your mind has become distracted let go
of that distraction the way you let it
go is that you don't continue thinking
those thoughts you just let those
thoughts go
don't keep your attention on next relax
the tension and tightness in your head
now your mind or your head it's made up
of two lobes like this and there's a
membrane that goes around each lobe it's
called the meninges every time you have
a thought every time you have a
sensation arise every time you have a
feeling arise that membrane tightens
okay now what you want to do is be able
to recognize that and relax it and when
you relax you'll feel kind of expansion
feeling in your head because that
pressure is taken off this is
a very important aspect of this training
what that tightness is is preety that's
how you can recognize what craving and
it is it always manifests as tension and
tightness in your mind and in your body
around your brain so you want to relax
that and when you do that you'll notice
right after that you don't have any
thoughts in your mind your mind is very
bright your mind is very alert your mind
is pure because it doesn't have any
craving in it at that time then you need
to bring up a wholesome thing that's why
we want you to smile and then come back
to your object of meditation your object
of meditation is the feeling of loving
kindness and make a wish for your own
happiness and then stay with that as
long as you can it doesn't matter how
many times your mind gets distracted
okay you can have your mind running all
over the place as soon as you notice it
let it go let go of it don't continue
thinking that thought relax
smile come back to your object of
meditation if your mind wanders fifty
times in this sitting and fifty times
you notice your mind is wandering you
let it go you relax smile and then come
back that is a good meditation so the
whole thing comes down to not judging
not condemning yourself because you
think you should be doing better than
you're doing it's just simply noticing
letting go relaxing smiling come back
and do it again every time you do this
you are practicing right effort
your mindfulness will get very sharp the
more times you notice that your mind is
distracted and you let go of that
distraction don't get caught in the
content of your thoughts your story
doesn't matter at all okay the whole
point of Buddhism is learning how Minds
attention works not why we don't care
about why this story came up we want to
know how Mayans attention moves from one
thing to another that's the definition
of mindfulness
how does mind attention move so the more
times your mind gets distracted and you
notice that and let it go and relax and
smile and come back the better your
meditation becomes eventually what's
going to happen is your mind will start
to stay on your object of meditation for
a longer period of time and the
distractions won't last for quite as
long when you first start off you can
get distracted for a minute or two
minutes or five minutes whatever it
doesn't matter as soon as you recognize
that your mind is not with the
meditation
don't criticize yourself don't condemn
yourself just go oh okay now you use the
six RS again this is a game of do it
again okay it doesn't matter how many
times you're mine
it's distracted it's fine understand
that every time you have a distraction
that's helping you to improve your
mindfulness so the whole point is
learning how to recognize Minds
attention moving from one thing to
another how that's the Buddha's question
how does this work how does it happen
and you'll get more instruction in that
as time goes by with the Dhamma talks so
it doesn't matter how many times your
mind gets distracted what matters is
that you recognize it release it relax
read smile and return to your object of
meditation and repeat that as often as
it needs to be done
so for the first 10 minutes of every
sitting he's been sending loving and
kind thoughts to yourself after 10
minutes then you start to send loving
and kind thoughts to a spiritual friend
a spiritual friend is someone of the
same sex and they are alive a spiritual
friend is someone that when you think of
them and their good qualities you really
respect them you'd like them you really
honestly sincerely wish them well the
more sincere you are the easier the
meditation becomes the more interest you
take in wishing your friend well the
easier the meditation becomes
so you're sitting and you're wishing
yourself happiness made my mind be
peaceful and calm as I feel this
happiness I wish this for you
may you be peaceful and calm take your
spiritual friend put them right in the
middle of your heart that glowing
feeling with the wish and surround them
with that feeling give them a big heart
hug
while you're sitting please don't move
your body
don't rock don't ship back and forth
don't scratch don't rub don't change
your posture sit and you can move as
much as he does okay sit still now while
you're doing this there are going to be
some sensations that are going to rise
in your body feel an itch feel heat feel
vibration feel a pain don't move sit
very still and watch how Minds attention
goes to that the first thing you'll
notice when a pain arises is your mind
goes to that sensation let's say it's
your knee
the next thing you'll notice is your
mind is starting to think about it
I wish it would I wish it would go away
why does it have to interfere with my
meditation every thought about the pain
causes the pain to get bigger and more
intense so the first thing you do is
relax let go of the thoughts relax the
tightness in your mind and then you will
notice that there is a tight mental fist
wrapped around that sensation that tight
mental fist is a version you don't like
it there you don't want it there you
want it to be go away
but that aversion is there now the truth
of the present moment is
be ready for this one when pain arises
it's there okay that's a truth when it's
there it's there and it's okay for it to
be there it has to be okay because
that's the truth it's there so what you
do is let go of that tight mental fist
and let that sensation be there by
itself don't try to change it don't try
to control it don't try to make it be
something other than it is anytime you
do that you're fighting with the truth
anytime you fight with the truth you are
fighting and causing yourself suffering
it's that simple and you're causing that
suffering to yourself
I love
so your job is to allow the present
moment to be there without any control
just let it be there it's okay but don't
keep your attention on it now you've
recognized that your that your attention
is there you let it be there you relax
you smile you come back to your object a
minute whoops there it is again now let
go the thoughts relax let go of that
tight mental fist relax let it be
smile come back to your object amenity
it doesn't matter how many times your
mind gets distracted your mindfulness is
like putting coins in a piggy bank every
time your mind gets distracted you
notice it you come back to your object
of meditation it's like putting a coin
in the bank eventually that Bank gets
full but it doesn't happen right away so
the more times you can allow things to
be the way they are and relax into them
and smile and come back to your
spiritual friend the sharper your
mindfulness becomes you'll start to stay
with your spiritual friend for a longer
period of time the distraction when it
comes and they will there will be
distractions I promise the distraction
will start to be shorter
as your mindfulness improves again this
is a smiling meditation that means I
want you all to be smiling right now
okay keep that smile going how does your
mind feel when you're smiling oh it's in
that back so the more you can have that
kind of mind the faster your progress
becomes one of the reasons that I like
to teach this kind of meditation in
particular is because the Buddha said
that with this meditation your progress
is faster than it is with any other kind
of meditation I don't care what kind of
meditation you've done in the past
let it go don't mix and match because
that'll slow down your progress you have
to develop the beginner's mind you don't
know what's gonna happen next stop
projecting don't get caught in thinking
that you know what's gonna happen next
because you don't I mean this riff can
follow in right now who knows
let go of all your past experience with
meditation all this I felt this one
before I know what this is all about you
don't because this particular meditation
is different than anything else you've
ever done why because you're learning
how to let go of craving there's very
few of us in the world that teach
letting go of creep you will be able to
recognize it always as tension and
tightness in your head in your mind now
sometimes you get the feeling going real
good and everything is going along and
all of the sudden the feeling goes away
and then you start trying harder and
then you have some restlessness arise
and then you try harder and then the
restlessness really gets ahold of you
does this sound familiar
and what you have to do is instead of
trying harder to make your mind get back
to where it was we'll stop trying so
hard and learn to develop a sense of
humor about how crazy your mind is with
trying because it is welcome to the
human race we're all crazy and it's okay
to be crazy all we have to do is learn
from our mistake and the mistake is
trying to get this present moment to be
like that past moment what now if that's
not funny I don't know what if it really
sounds odd to hear this statement
meditation is supposed to be fun how
many times has anybody told you that it
is fun when you have a sense of fun
about your practice and how crazy your
mind can be that helps to balance your
mind so that you're not caught anymore
okay
now the thing that's real important is
that when you can laugh with yourself
about getting caught again that laughter
changes your perspective okay you go
from I don't like this I don't want it
to be this way
- it's only this that's what laughter
does
make this meditation fun enjoy there's
nothing wrong with enjoying I know I had
20 years of experience that everything
is suffering okay I know that game and
it's a dead-end street it doesn't work
if you're gonna dwell on suffering that
means that you're gonna suffer more okay
you want to do that to yourself that's
up to you but I kind of like having fun
more any time your mind gets serious
guess who has an attachment okay you get
serious about this person said that and
I don't like that and now you're all
caught up in taking every thought that
you have personally every time you take
something personally you are causing
yourself suffering you can't blame
somebody else because you're doing it to
yourself the whole point of the Buddha's
teaching is to recognize when you have
an attachment let go of the attachment
and relax
bring up something wholesome smile come
back to your object of meditation keep
that object of meditation going
that's right effort that's the six R's
are exactly the same right effort will
take you all the way to Nevada and you
can't get to Nirvana when you have
attachments sit no less than thirty
minutes when you're sitting is good
don't break it sit longer as long as
you're comfortable when it's time to
break you're sitting that doesn't mean
you stop your meditation
it just means you change your posture so
you stay with your spiritual friend
wishing them well and you get up and you
go outside and you do your walking
meditation walking meditation is walking
at a normal pace not a slow pace at a
normal pace just like you walk in your
daily life this is a trait for your
daily life
remember this stay with your spiritual
friend now when you're walking pick a
spot that's so thirty or forty or fifty
feet whatever you're comfortable with
and just walk back and forth okay
and stay with your spiritual friend as
much as you can remember the walking is
going to be somewhat difficult at first
because you're not used to that you're
used to walking around thinking about
this thinking about that getting caught
up and all that nonsense stuff and it's
hard to stay with your spiritual friend
but that's okay
as soon as you recognize that you're
thinking about something else you do the
same thing as you do in the city you let
it go you relax you smile you come back
to your spiritual bent it doesn't matter
how many times your mind gets distracted
when you're doing your walking it's best
not to be looking around because you
look around that's where your mind goes
and all of a sudden you're a thousand
miles away from here so just keep your
eyes down gently down not making a big
deal out of it and you'll notice that
you're able to stay with your spiritual
friend a little bit easier when you do
that that 10 or 12 feet in front of you
is fine now when you're doing your
sitting meditation and you're radiating
loving-kindness to your spiritual friend
you want to see your spiritual friend in
your mind's eye now for some people it's
very easy to visualize you can see their
face and you can see them doing all
kinds of things it doesn't matter for
other people visualization is very
difficult you can visualize with your
thoughts about them
okay you don't have to necessarily see
them in your mind's eye but you know
that they're happy you see them in your
mind as being happy
whether you visualize that happiness or
not doesn't really matter now you want
about 75% of your attention on this
feeling this radiating feeling from your
chest you want about 20% of your
attention on the making of the wish and
putting that wish that feeling of the
wish into your heart now a lot of people
and in about 5% of your attention on
visualizing so the visualizing isn't
that doesn't take that much attention
don't try real hard no the thing with
visualizing sometimes it's cloudy
sometimes it's fuzzy sometimes it's like
it's a long ways away that doesn't
matter
don't put your attention so much on
visualizing it's more this is a feeling
meditation so you want to feel that
radiating glowing feeling and that will
start to grow by itself and get
and bigger but you always take your
friend and put them in the middle of
your heart in your mind
see them smiling seeing them happy and
that can help remind you to smile
there's more to smiling than just
pasting something on your face
you want to smile with your mind
keep your mind light don't try have fun
that keeps your mind light you want to
smile with your eyes even when your eyes
are closed you'd be surprised how much
tension is in your face when you smile
with your eyes that all disappear a
little Buddha smile on your lips and a
smile in your heart so there's more to
smiling than just the corners of your
mouth
a lot of people will ask me is it
alright to change the wish yes
of course it is whatever you feel is
appropriate there are people that come
to me and they say oh I have this friend
that's really confused and going through
all kinds of problems can you radiate
some loving kindness to them okay I do
that and what I wish for them is a clear
uplifted mind you know what it feels
like to have a clear mind you know what
it feels like to have an uplifted mine
put that feeling in your heart put that
person right in the middle of that this
is important you have to feel the wish
you can't give something to somebody
else that you don't have yourself so you
feel that wish if it's for happiness or
joy cheerfulness accepting mind clear
mind it's all up to you stay with the
same wish for a little while but don't
make that wish over and over may you be
happy may you be happy may you be happy
may you be happy make the wish one time
feel that wish stay with that feeling
and radiate that feeling to your friend
then your mind gets distracted you use
the six hours do this whole process
again
so when you come back from your walking
don't walk any more any less than 15
minutes walking at a normal speed that
helps get the circulation going and that
will help you later on but you stay with
your spiritual friend one of the things
that will happen especially the first
day is you will start to get some sloth
and torpor sleepiness
how does sleepiness arise sleepiness
arises because you're with your
spiritual friend and then you start
thinking little tiny thoughts
they're just ho-hum thoughts they're not
much about anything and then they get a
little bit bigger and then you start to
get into a dreaming state and then your
posture starts to slow and before long
your head is bobbing and the mistake
that everybody makes is they notice
they're doing that they sit up really
straight and say I'm really not going to
do that again and then they do it again
okay the reason it sloth and torpor
comes up in the first place is because
you're not taking enough interest in the
feeling of loving kindness and sending
that to your spiritual friend you're
just kind of homing it so you need to
have more interest in what you're doing
while you're doing it that's the way you
develop your mindfulness
I'm not going to say if I'm going to say
when you get caught with sloth and
torpor then what you want to do is
you're supposed to sit with your back
nicely straight but when you get sloth
and torpor straighten it a little bit
more so it's almost uncomfortable and
then you'll have those little tiny
thoughts and get dreamy and your back
starts to slump you'll be able to
recognize it more easily and then you
can straighten your back up and come
back to your object of meditation we're
not and we're not worrying about the
content of the thoughts we're wanting to
see how that happens right the whole
point of meditation is your mind is on
your object of meditation and it goes
over here and thinks about this or that
how did that happen
not why did it happen we don't care
about why why is for kind psychologists
they can worry about that but how did
that happen your mind was here and now
it's there there's a process that you
have to be able to recognize what
happened first what happened after that
what happened after that what happened
after that the more you take an interest
in how your mind becomes distracted the
easier it will be to recognize this
process and catch it a little bit
quicker and relax and smile and come
back
this is very important how does this
work as you're able to recognize how
this works you start seeing how
attachment works and what is attachment
always attachment is I am that I am that
thought I am that feeling I am that
sensation this is me craving always
manifest has the I like it I don't like
it mind it happens automatically a
pleasant feeling arises oh I like that
one that's what your mind does a painful
feeling arises oh I don't like that one
it's the I like it I don't like it might
that's the thing that causes that
meninges that that membrane that goes
around your brain to contract a little
bit that's how you can recognize it so
the more you recognize the tension and
tightness and relax and smile and come
back to your object of meditation the
easier things become and the faster you
learn how your mind works you teach
yourself by your own experience I don't
teach you I could have suggestions you
can use it or not see if it works if it
doesn't don't use it your choice
one thing you don't want to do is
recognize when there's some kind of
painful thing and then you start
releasing relaxing releasing relaxing
and you come and complain to me this
doesn't work yeah it works you got to do
it right that's the problem
you don't just release and relax and
release and relax and expect that
painful thing to go away you release you
relax
Yury smile you come back to your object
of meditation every time that's your own
base always go home
don't stop fiddling around with release
relax and not go home because you're not
improving your mindfulness when you do
that you start putting in too much
energy and too much effort and you cause
yourself all kinds of problems these
instructions are very precise they are
very exact don't add anything don't
subtract anything this is the Buddhist
teaching it's not my teaching the Buddha
was one of the most magnificent beings
ever because he figured all this stuff
out all by himself it's amazing and the
reason that his teaching is still around
today is because it works that's the
truth
so have to let go of all your past
experiences with doing the meditation
you have to let go of your thinking that
maybe if I do this I'll be able to have
this other thing happen no you have to
let all that go it's simple just
practice the six RS just smile have fun
relax simple not easy because it depends
on your old habits as the old habits are
going to crop up once in a while but as
you start to recognize how these things
work and how you cause yourself
suffering then it starts to dawn on you
I don't need to do that what am I doing
that to myself don't need let it go
keep it simple don't add anything okay
now they talk to you about the schedule
and all of that sort of thing it is good
to be especially in the morning five
minutes early okay it is good because
we're not going to start doing the
morning service until everybody is here
so you don't want to be the last one in
okay keep warm especially in the
evenings you need to drink quite a bit
of water because in the daytime you
dehydrate you don't know it and that
will affect your meditation negatively
so make sure you have enough fluids
coming in when you're taking a shower
five minutes that's it don't use any
more water than that and actually turn
the water on
get your body wet turn the water off
soak down rinse a lot rinse it off get
out that's the way we have to do it
because water is very precious here
so I can't think of anything else right
off yes to send that money on to a
friend of the same sex no it will have
your mind will start to have left or
right and what happens is you get
infatuated with that person and you
start thinking about all kinds of things
about them and how we're gonna be when
you get off retreat and it drives you
crazy don't do that but wonder if you're
gay then I'll change the meditation to
another round again this is not for
everyone well if you're gay well then
don't want you to or one of the top is
no no it would be something else because
what happens is the other personal
response you may not turn right off on
the other party it can cause problems
it's loving-kindnesses not for every
kind of personality if you're gay then I
will give you the breathing meditation
because that doesn't matter and the
instructions are pretty much the same
so I need to know that when you come to
the first interview I did there's no I
don't care whether you are not doesn't
matter but for your spiritual progress I
need to know so that we can adjust so
that everything will work out very
nicely for you I thinking like a wife or
a child no not right now
you have to understand this is a
training period when you get to a
certain degree of skill then I will
change it and you can do your wife and
your kids and other things but there has
to be somebody clean entity in there now
I didn't I told you to not the person
has to be alive and they have to be the
same sex also not a member of your
family if you do it with a member of
your family a member of your family has
a tendency to do some things that you
don't like and guess what comes up in
your mind so if you pick somebody that's
a little bit further away than that
someone that you respect very much you
can pick a month you can pick a good
friend whatever it's up to you foreign
so is there any other question
tomorrow I will talk more about
hindrances and what you do with
hindrances when they arise but I want to
give you a chance to have your Sitz now
one of the things for 20 years I went
through this practice of you sit for an
hour and you walk for an hour and
everybody did it all together but you
sit for a half an hour and sit longer
when your meditation is good sometimes
an hour and a half sitting can seem like
it's five minutes
sometimes a half an hour sitting seems
like it's hours but you have to be able
to you start extending you're sitting as
you get used to the meditation you'll be
able to sit for longer sit for 45
minutes you sit for an hour
sit for an hour and a half sit for two
hours that's fine as long as you're not
pushing as long as you're not forcing
this is a natural unfolding this is the
way the Buddha wanted us to do the
practice so that naturally your mind
will develop and you will start to go
deeper through your understanding of how
this process works
so there's not going to be the
interviews tomorrow I want to give you
to get get a chance to do a little bit
of practice first and then after that
I'll see everybody every day
individually but if you run across some
kind of problem tomorrow come and tell
me okay
just understand that the first day of a
meditation retreat is by far the hardest
part of the whole retreat because your
mind is still out there and it's going
to have resistance to coming in so it's
going to put you through some kinds of
changes and that's why you're going to
be getting roughly eight hours of sleep
anyway right you go to bed at ten
o'clock
you get up at five o'clock hours you get
an hour after lunch that's eight hours
do you understand what a walk in the
park this
I mean when I was in Burma I went to bed
at eleven o'clock I got up at three
o'clock and then they told me I was
being lazy so I went to bed at twelve
o'clock
got up at two o'clock and I did that for
three months I don't recommend this
so you're gonna have plenty of rest so
please don't go to bed until 10 o'clock
okay and this is for you so you have
enough time to really do the practice
you'll see the advantages of this
anything else okay
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and may all beings and may all beings
share this merit that they justified for
the acquisition of all kinds of
happiness may beans inhabiting space and
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protect the Buddhist dispensation
you
so have you already been granted okay so
you have an idea of what we're gonna be
doing here I would like you to cut down
you're talking and only talk about
Dominic
okay the retreat is going to be a
loving-kindness retreat and what that
really entails is learning how to smile
all the time there's a real interesting
thing that happens when the corners of
your mouth go down so does your mental
state when the corners of your mouth go
up so does your mental state I don't
care whether you don't feel like smiling
I want you to smile anyway okay it's
important because it helps bring your
mind up and it will help joy arise and
when you have joy in your mind your mind
is very clear your mind is very alert
and it's very easy to see when your mind
starts to get pulled down so smiling is
a real important aspect of this practice
when you practice loving-kindness
meditation you first start by sending
loving and kind thoughts to yourself
remember a time when you were happy when
you held a little baby in your arms with
me held
little animal in your hands and that
feeling that you get from that is a nice
warm glowing feeling in the center of
your chest as soon as that feeling
arises then you make a wish for your own
happiness may I be happy may my mind be
peaceful and calm my mind be filled with
joy any kind of wish that you make for
yourself you need to feel that which you
know what it feels like to be happy you
know what it feels like to be peaceful
and calm bring that feeling up and put
that feeling right in the center of your
chest and in that glowing feeling and
stay with that as long as you can
now your mind is going to wander and
it's okay we're not trying to shut our
mind down and stop it from thinking but
as soon as you notice that you're not on
the feeling of loving kindness and
feeling that wish then recognize that
your mind has become distracted let go
of that distraction the way you let it
go is that you don't continue thinking
those thoughts you just let those
thoughts go
don't keep your attention on next relax
the tension and tightness in your head
now your mind or your head it's made up
of two lobes like this and there's a
membrane that goes around each lobe it's
called the meninges every time you have
a thought every time you have a
sensation arise every time you have a
feeling arise that membrane tightens
okay now what you want to do is be able
to recognize that and relax it and when
you relax you'll feel kind of expansion
feeling in your head because that
pressure is taken off this is
a very important aspect of this training
what that tightness is is preety that's
how you can recognize what craving and
it is it always manifests as tension and
tightness in your mind and in your body
around your brain so you want to relax
that and when you do that you'll notice
right after that you don't have any
thoughts in your mind your mind is very
bright your mind is very alert your mind
is pure because it doesn't have any
craving in it at that time then you need
to bring up a wholesome thing that's why
we want you to smile and then come back
to your object of meditation your object
of meditation is the feeling of loving
kindness and make a wish for your own
happiness and then stay with that as
long as you can it doesn't matter how
many times your mind gets distracted
okay you can have your mind running all
over the place as soon as you notice it
let it go let go of it don't continue
thinking that thought relax
smile come back to your object of
meditation if your mind wanders fifty
times in this sitting and fifty times
you notice your mind is wandering you
let it go you relax smile and then come
back that is a good meditation so the
whole thing comes down to not judging
not condemning yourself because you
think you should be doing better than
you're doing it's just simply noticing
letting go relaxing smiling come back
and do it again every time you do this
you are practicing right effort
your mindfulness will get very sharp the
more times you notice that your mind is
distracted and you let go of that
distraction don't get caught in the
content of your thoughts your story
doesn't matter at all okay the whole
point of Buddhism is learning how Minds
attention works not why we don't care
about why this story came up we want to
know how Mayans attention moves from one
thing to another that's the definition
of mindfulness
how does mind attention move so the more
times your mind gets distracted and you
notice that and let it go and relax and
smile and come back the better your
meditation becomes eventually what's
going to happen is your mind will start
to stay on your object of meditation for
a longer period of time and the
distractions won't last for quite as
long when you first start off you can
get distracted for a minute or two
minutes or five minutes whatever it
doesn't matter as soon as you recognize
that your mind is not with the
meditation
don't criticize yourself don't condemn
yourself just go oh okay now you use the
six RS again this is a game of do it
again okay it doesn't matter how many
times you're mine
it's distracted it's fine understand
that every time you have a distraction
that's helping you to improve your
mindfulness so the whole point is
learning how to recognize Minds
attention moving from one thing to
another how that's the Buddha's question
how does this work how does it happen
and you'll get more instruction in that
as time goes by with the Dhamma talks so
it doesn't matter how many times your
mind gets distracted what matters is
that you recognize it release it relax
read smile and return to your object of
meditation and repeat that as often as
it needs to be done
so for the first 10 minutes of every
sitting he's been sending loving and
kind thoughts to yourself after 10
minutes then you start to send loving
and kind thoughts to a spiritual friend
a spiritual friend is someone of the
same sex and they are alive a spiritual
friend is someone that when you think of
them and their good qualities you really
respect them you'd like them you really
honestly sincerely wish them well the
more sincere you are the easier the
meditation becomes the more interest you
take in wishing your friend well the
easier the meditation becomes
so you're sitting and you're wishing
yourself happiness made my mind be
peaceful and calm as I feel this
happiness I wish this for you
may you be peaceful and calm take your
spiritual friend put them right in the
middle of your heart that glowing
feeling with the wish and surround them
with that feeling give them a big heart
hug
while you're sitting please don't move
your body
don't rock don't ship back and forth
don't scratch don't rub don't change
your posture sit and you can move as
much as he does okay sit still now while
you're doing this there are going to be
some sensations that are going to rise
in your body feel an itch feel heat feel
vibration feel a pain don't move sit
very still and watch how Minds attention
goes to that the first thing you'll
notice when a pain arises is your mind
goes to that sensation let's say it's
your knee
the next thing you'll notice is your
mind is starting to think about it
I wish it would I wish it would go away
why does it have to interfere with my
meditation every thought about the pain
causes the pain to get bigger and more
intense so the first thing you do is
relax let go of the thoughts relax the
tightness in your mind and then you will
notice that there is a tight mental fist
wrapped around that sensation that tight
mental fist is a version you don't like
it there you don't want it there you
want it to be go away
but that aversion is there now the truth
of the present moment is
be ready for this one when pain arises
it's there okay that's a truth when it's
there it's there and it's okay for it to
be there it has to be okay because
that's the truth it's there so what you
do is let go of that tight mental fist
and let that sensation be there by
itself don't try to change it don't try
to control it don't try to make it be
something other than it is anytime you
do that you're fighting with the truth
anytime you fight with the truth you are
fighting and causing yourself suffering
it's that simple and you're causing that
suffering to yourself
I love
so your job is to allow the present
moment to be there without any control
just let it be there it's okay but don't
keep your attention on it now you've
recognized that your that your attention
is there you let it be there you relax
you smile you come back to your object a
minute whoops there it is again now let
go the thoughts relax let go of that
tight mental fist relax let it be
smile come back to your object amenity
it doesn't matter how many times your
mind gets distracted your mindfulness is
like putting coins in a piggy bank every
time your mind gets distracted you
notice it you come back to your object
of meditation it's like putting a coin
in the bank eventually that Bank gets
full but it doesn't happen right away so
the more times you can allow things to
be the way they are and relax into them
and smile and come back to your
spiritual friend the sharper your
mindfulness becomes you'll start to stay
with your spiritual friend for a longer
period of time the distraction when it
comes and they will there will be
distractions I promise the distraction
will start to be shorter
as your mindfulness improves again this
is a smiling meditation that means I
want you all to be smiling right now
okay keep that smile going how does your
mind feel when you're smiling oh it's in
that back so the more you can have that
kind of mind the faster your progress
becomes one of the reasons that I like
to teach this kind of meditation in
particular is because the Buddha said
that with this meditation your progress
is faster than it is with any other kind
of meditation I don't care what kind of
meditation you've done in the past
let it go don't mix and match because
that'll slow down your progress you have
to develop the beginner's mind you don't
know what's gonna happen next stop
projecting don't get caught in thinking
that you know what's gonna happen next
because you don't I mean this riff can
follow in right now who knows
let go of all your past experience with
meditation all this I felt this one
before I know what this is all about you
don't because this particular meditation
is different than anything else you've
ever done why because you're learning
how to let go of craving there's very
few of us in the world that teach
letting go of creep you will be able to
recognize it always as tension and
tightness in your head in your mind now
sometimes you get the feeling going real
good and everything is going along and
all of the sudden the feeling goes away
and then you start trying harder and
then you have some restlessness arise
and then you try harder and then the
restlessness really gets ahold of you
does this sound familiar
and what you have to do is instead of
trying harder to make your mind get back
to where it was we'll stop trying so
hard and learn to develop a sense of
humor about how crazy your mind is with
trying because it is welcome to the
human race we're all crazy and it's okay
to be crazy all we have to do is learn
from our mistake and the mistake is
trying to get this present moment to be
like that past moment what now if that's
not funny I don't know what if it really
sounds odd to hear this statement
meditation is supposed to be fun how
many times has anybody told you that it
is fun when you have a sense of fun
about your practice and how crazy your
mind can be that helps to balance your
mind so that you're not caught anymore
okay
now the thing that's real important is
that when you can laugh with yourself
about getting caught again that laughter
changes your perspective okay you go
from I don't like this I don't want it
to be this way
- it's only this that's what laughter
does
make this meditation fun enjoy there's
nothing wrong with enjoying I know I had
20 years of experience that everything
is suffering okay I know that game and
it's a dead-end street it doesn't work
if you're gonna dwell on suffering that
means that you're gonna suffer more okay
you want to do that to yourself that's
up to you but I kind of like having fun
more any time your mind gets serious
guess who has an attachment okay you get
serious about this person said that and
I don't like that and now you're all
caught up in taking every thought that
you have personally every time you take
something personally you are causing
yourself suffering you can't blame
somebody else because you're doing it to
yourself the whole point of the Buddha's
teaching is to recognize when you have
an attachment let go of the attachment
and relax
bring up something wholesome smile come
back to your object of meditation keep
that object of meditation going
that's right effort that's the six R's
are exactly the same right effort will
take you all the way to Nevada and you
can't get to Nirvana when you have
attachments sit no less than thirty
minutes when you're sitting is good
don't break it sit longer as long as
you're comfortable when it's time to
break you're sitting that doesn't mean
you stop your meditation
it just means you change your posture so
you stay with your spiritual friend
wishing them well and you get up and you
go outside and you do your walking
meditation walking meditation is walking
at a normal pace not a slow pace at a
normal pace just like you walk in your
daily life this is a trait for your
daily life
remember this stay with your spiritual
friend now when you're walking pick a
spot that's so thirty or forty or fifty
feet whatever you're comfortable with
and just walk back and forth okay
and stay with your spiritual friend as
much as you can remember the walking is
going to be somewhat difficult at first
because you're not used to that you're
used to walking around thinking about
this thinking about that getting caught
up and all that nonsense stuff and it's
hard to stay with your spiritual friend
but that's okay
as soon as you recognize that you're
thinking about something else you do the
same thing as you do in the city you let
it go you relax you smile you come back
to your spiritual bent it doesn't matter
how many times your mind gets distracted
when you're doing your walking it's best
not to be looking around because you
look around that's where your mind goes
and all of a sudden you're a thousand
miles away from here so just keep your
eyes down gently down not making a big
deal out of it and you'll notice that
you're able to stay with your spiritual
friend a little bit easier when you do
that that 10 or 12 feet in front of you
is fine now when you're doing your
sitting meditation and you're radiating
loving-kindness to your spiritual friend
you want to see your spiritual friend in
your mind's eye now for some people it's
very easy to visualize you can see their
face and you can see them doing all
kinds of things it doesn't matter for
other people visualization is very
difficult you can visualize with your
thoughts about them
okay you don't have to necessarily see
them in your mind's eye but you know
that they're happy you see them in your
mind as being happy
whether you visualize that happiness or
not doesn't really matter now you want
about 75% of your attention on this
feeling this radiating feeling from your
chest you want about 20% of your
attention on the making of the wish and
putting that wish that feeling of the
wish into your heart now a lot of people
and in about 5% of your attention on
visualizing so the visualizing isn't
that doesn't take that much attention
don't try real hard no the thing with
visualizing sometimes it's cloudy
sometimes it's fuzzy sometimes it's like
it's a long ways away that doesn't
matter
don't put your attention so much on
visualizing it's more this is a feeling
meditation so you want to feel that
radiating glowing feeling and that will
start to grow by itself and get
and bigger but you always take your
friend and put them in the middle of
your heart in your mind
see them smiling seeing them happy and
that can help remind you to smile
there's more to smiling than just
pasting something on your face
you want to smile with your mind
keep your mind light don't try have fun
that keeps your mind light you want to
smile with your eyes even when your eyes
are closed you'd be surprised how much
tension is in your face when you smile
with your eyes that all disappear a
little Buddha smile on your lips and a
smile in your heart so there's more to
smiling than just the corners of your
mouth
a lot of people will ask me is it
alright to change the wish yes
of course it is whatever you feel is
appropriate there are people that come
to me and they say oh I have this friend
that's really confused and going through
all kinds of problems can you radiate
some loving kindness to them okay I do
that and what I wish for them is a clear
uplifted mind you know what it feels
like to have a clear mind you know what
it feels like to have an uplifted mine
put that feeling in your heart put that
person right in the middle of that this
is important you have to feel the wish
you can't give something to somebody
else that you don't have yourself so you
feel that wish if it's for happiness or
joy cheerfulness accepting mind clear
mind it's all up to you stay with the
same wish for a little while but don't
make that wish over and over may you be
happy may you be happy may you be happy
may you be happy make the wish one time
feel that wish stay with that feeling
and radiate that feeling to your friend
then your mind gets distracted you use
the six hours do this whole process
again
so when you come back from your walking
don't walk any more any less than 15
minutes walking at a normal speed that
helps get the circulation going and that
will help you later on but you stay with
your spiritual friend one of the things
that will happen especially the first
day is you will start to get some sloth
and torpor sleepiness
how does sleepiness arise sleepiness
arises because you're with your
spiritual friend and then you start
thinking little tiny thoughts
they're just ho-hum thoughts they're not
much about anything and then they get a
little bit bigger and then you start to
get into a dreaming state and then your
posture starts to slow and before long
your head is bobbing and the mistake
that everybody makes is they notice
they're doing that they sit up really
straight and say I'm really not going to
do that again and then they do it again
okay the reason it sloth and torpor
comes up in the first place is because
you're not taking enough interest in the
feeling of loving kindness and sending
that to your spiritual friend you're
just kind of homing it so you need to
have more interest in what you're doing
while you're doing it that's the way you
develop your mindfulness
I'm not going to say if I'm going to say
when you get caught with sloth and
torpor then what you want to do is
you're supposed to sit with your back
nicely straight but when you get sloth
and torpor straighten it a little bit
more so it's almost uncomfortable and
then you'll have those little tiny
thoughts and get dreamy and your back
starts to slump you'll be able to
recognize it more easily and then you
can straighten your back up and come
back to your object of meditation we're
not and we're not worrying about the
content of the thoughts we're wanting to
see how that happens right the whole
point of meditation is your mind is on
your object of meditation and it goes
over here and thinks about this or that
how did that happen
not why did it happen we don't care
about why why is for kind psychologists
they can worry about that but how did
that happen your mind was here and now
it's there there's a process that you
have to be able to recognize what
happened first what happened after that
what happened after that what happened
after that the more you take an interest
in how your mind becomes distracted the
easier it will be to recognize this
process and catch it a little bit
quicker and relax and smile and come
back
this is very important how does this
work as you're able to recognize how
this works you start seeing how
attachment works and what is attachment
always attachment is I am that I am that
thought I am that feeling I am that
sensation this is me craving always
manifest has the I like it I don't like
it mind it happens automatically a
pleasant feeling arises oh I like that
one that's what your mind does a painful
feeling arises oh I don't like that one
it's the I like it I don't like it might
that's the thing that causes that
meninges that that membrane that goes
around your brain to contract a little
bit that's how you can recognize it so
the more you recognize the tension and
tightness and relax and smile and come
back to your object of meditation the
easier things become and the faster you
learn how your mind works you teach
yourself by your own experience I don't
teach you I could have suggestions you
can use it or not see if it works if it
doesn't don't use it your choice
one thing you don't want to do is
recognize when there's some kind of
painful thing and then you start
releasing relaxing releasing relaxing
and you come and complain to me this
doesn't work yeah it works you got to do
it right that's the problem
you don't just release and relax and
release and relax and expect that
painful thing to go away you release you
relax
Yury smile you come back to your object
of meditation every time that's your own
base always go home
don't stop fiddling around with release
relax and not go home because you're not
improving your mindfulness when you do
that you start putting in too much
energy and too much effort and you cause
yourself all kinds of problems these
instructions are very precise they are
very exact don't add anything don't
subtract anything this is the Buddhist
teaching it's not my teaching the Buddha
was one of the most magnificent beings
ever because he figured all this stuff
out all by himself it's amazing and the
reason that his teaching is still around
today is because it works that's the
truth
so have to let go of all your past
experiences with doing the meditation
you have to let go of your thinking that
maybe if I do this I'll be able to have
this other thing happen no you have to
let all that go it's simple just
practice the six RS just smile have fun
relax simple not easy because it depends
on your old habits as the old habits are
going to crop up once in a while but as
you start to recognize how these things
work and how you cause yourself
suffering then it starts to dawn on you
I don't need to do that what am I doing
that to myself don't need let it go
keep it simple don't add anything okay
now they talk to you about the schedule
and all of that sort of thing it is good
to be especially in the morning five
minutes early okay it is good because
we're not going to start doing the
morning service until everybody is here
so you don't want to be the last one in
okay keep warm especially in the
evenings you need to drink quite a bit
of water because in the daytime you
dehydrate you don't know it and that
will affect your meditation negatively
so make sure you have enough fluids
coming in when you're taking a shower
five minutes that's it don't use any
more water than that and actually turn
the water on
get your body wet turn the water off
soak down rinse a lot rinse it off get
out that's the way we have to do it
because water is very precious here
so I can't think of anything else right
off yes to send that money on to a
friend of the same sex no it will have
your mind will start to have left or
right and what happens is you get
infatuated with that person and you
start thinking about all kinds of things
about them and how we're gonna be when
you get off retreat and it drives you
crazy don't do that but wonder if you're
gay then I'll change the meditation to
another round again this is not for
everyone well if you're gay well then
don't want you to or one of the top is
no no it would be something else because
what happens is the other personal
response you may not turn right off on
the other party it can cause problems
it's loving-kindnesses not for every
kind of personality if you're gay then I
will give you the breathing meditation
because that doesn't matter and the
instructions are pretty much the same
so I need to know that when you come to
the first interview I did there's no I
don't care whether you are not doesn't
matter but for your spiritual progress I
need to know so that we can adjust so
that everything will work out very
nicely for you I thinking like a wife or
a child no not right now
you have to understand this is a
training period when you get to a
certain degree of skill then I will
change it and you can do your wife and
your kids and other things but there has
to be somebody clean entity in there now
I didn't I told you to not the person
has to be alive and they have to be the
same sex also not a member of your
family if you do it with a member of
your family a member of your family has
a tendency to do some things that you
don't like and guess what comes up in
your mind so if you pick somebody that's
a little bit further away than that
someone that you respect very much you
can pick a month you can pick a good
friend whatever it's up to you foreign
so is there any other question
tomorrow I will talk more about
hindrances and what you do with
hindrances when they arise but I want to
give you a chance to have your Sitz now
one of the things for 20 years I went
through this practice of you sit for an
hour and you walk for an hour and
everybody did it all together but you
sit for a half an hour and sit longer
when your meditation is good sometimes
an hour and a half sitting can seem like
it's five minutes
sometimes a half an hour sitting seems
like it's hours but you have to be able
to you start extending you're sitting as
you get used to the meditation you'll be
able to sit for longer sit for 45
minutes you sit for an hour
sit for an hour and a half sit for two
hours that's fine as long as you're not
pushing as long as you're not forcing
this is a natural unfolding this is the
way the Buddha wanted us to do the
practice so that naturally your mind
will develop and you will start to go
deeper through your understanding of how
this process works
so there's not going to be the
interviews tomorrow I want to give you
to get get a chance to do a little bit
of practice first and then after that
I'll see everybody every day
individually but if you run across some
kind of problem tomorrow come and tell
me okay
just understand that the first day of a
meditation retreat is by far the hardest
part of the whole retreat because your
mind is still out there and it's going
to have resistance to coming in so it's
going to put you through some kinds of
changes and that's why you're going to
be getting roughly eight hours of sleep
anyway right you go to bed at ten
o'clock
you get up at five o'clock hours you get
an hour after lunch that's eight hours
do you understand what a walk in the
park this
I mean when I was in Burma I went to bed
at eleven o'clock I got up at three
o'clock and then they told me I was
being lazy so I went to bed at twelve
o'clock
got up at two o'clock and I did that for
three months I don't recommend this
so you're gonna have plenty of rest so
please don't go to bed until 10 o'clock
okay and this is for you so you have
enough time to really do the practice
you'll see the advantages of this
anything else okay
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